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[Action, January 3rd]
[Voice, March 8th]
[Written, June 11th]

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[A tinge of relief as she takes the journal, and he can see her snapshot clearly in the frame. But it doesn't fill up all the empty spaces left by uncertainty. More of his questions die on his tongue when she asks that, though.]

I was... [He almost can't tell her; her reaction when she found out that he had been killed in his world is imprinted clearly in his memory. He doesn't want her to worry about him too much... But it's unavoidable, isn't it? He...can't hide it from her... Softly, but with obvious underlying anger and resentment:] Yuan killed me.

[He feels like he's holding his breath in, waiting for her to respond. Dreading, worrying.]

Edited 2011-11-10 06:40 (UTC)

[Killed.

Killed.

Someone had killed Mithos.

That single word echoes over and over in her head, each time pushing back her previous fear and replacing it with a dose of venomous anger. Who would have dared–]

Tell me about him. Now.

He's one of my former companions, and nothing but a worthless traitor. He betrayed me, and he betrayed Martel, even though they were engaged to be wed.

[Sickening. Repulsive. But.....had Yuan really betrayed Martel, when the things he, Mithos, had done for her sake did not truly follow her wishes...? Had the one to betray Martel been--? The thought is quiet enough to be drowned out by his loathing and rage, but it still hangs there for a brief moment like a sour note.]

['Engaged to be wed.' If there was one fast way to get on Kaori's ill side immediately, it was to betray someone whom you had promised yourself to. That person had entrusted you with everything, and to throw it all away in such a matter... Someone like that didn't deserve to know peace.]

How could he...?

[because it isn't what Martel wanted... Then the question turns to...how could Yuan stand the thought of never seeing her again? If he loved her, how could he let go? Why was he the only one to completely fall apart, all alone? Because he's weak...

...well that just about derails his anger. He can't keep it burning through the uncertainty.]

...I don't know.

[Even without being there she can feel the uncertainty, the same way he had been when they first met and they had started to open up without meaning to. And she had sworn before that she would be there for him if he needed her, and that's what it sounded like now.]

... Hey, Mithos? Do you want me to come see you? [Though... she has never been told where he lives or stays. How would she be able to find him without risking exposing that he's returned to that awful man?]

[Yes, his heart answers immediately for him. Yes, he wants that badly. Sayo has shown him kindness, but his distrust leaves him deeply uncomfortable despite it. He needs comfort, any little scrap.

But... His mind races back to all of the questions he hasn't asked yet. The uncertainty is only getting worse.]

Kaori.....can I ask you something first?

Of course you can, Mithos. [And she has every intention of answering him honestly, just as she always has with every conversation they have had as far as she is aware.]

Why are you with him? He's...a human.

[shaking his head] ...I don't understand. [because she doesn't seem to be there against her will, and she didn't seem afraid of him... It doesn't add up.]

[... And then her blood runs cold, hearing him speak those questions out loud. Kaori is well aware that Frey was a Human – no matter how close they have become over the past months, that thought still comes across her mind when she least expects it or simply when she's enjoying spending time with him. But there was undeniably that part of her that would always fear, and perhaps even expect that he would someday hurt her... or outright abandon her like everyone else in her life seems to have done.

But she had decided to answer him honestly, and had no intention of changing her mind about that now.] He's... he's my brother... [Except he wasn't really.] He thought it would be better that I stay with him...

[Frey had referred to her as his 'little sister' before...but he knows they aren't related, and Kaori's brother is not human, so...?] Kaori, he's a human. [more pressing]

You would trust his judgment? Do you honestly think he has your best interests in mind? He's tricking you, he's... You know humans can't be trusted. [his mind is racing and his heart is producing a thousand feelings at once and his mouth can't keep up with it all]

I know about... about Humans. [It's why she hated this place and found herself occasionally wanting to go home with all her might so she wouldn't have to be so confused anymore. But every time she talks to Frey... he's always honest, and had always been there despite the terrible things she had done, sometimes even to him.

And she hated it.]

Then how can you live with one? [Pot, kettle. But his circumstances are different, and he's struggling with the very idea so hard. It's impossible to be at ease.]

I'm not even sure how I'm able to. [Honestly, what is she thinking? It's been weeks since she came to live here, and it was still uncomfortable to be in the house for extended periods of time when a significant number of her housemates were home.

... But it trumped being alone...]

Live somewhere else, then, if you don't trust him! [He doesn't realize he's raising his voice; he's just so confused and scared for her.]

Why would you put yourself through that? [if it weren't for his reduced mobility, he would never have chosen to come live with Sayo. He would never have to face the confusion of her kindness and patience, the struggle of avoiding what could only be a false sense of security.]

[... But she never said she didn't trust Freyjadour. If she had to be honest with herself, there would be no way for her to deny that somewhere along the way a small part of her had begun to trust Freyjadour outside of the promise they had found themselves upholding.]

... Where else should I go, Mithos...?

[....Where can one like them go? They're not wanted anywhere... But she could at least put walls between herself and anyone who might try to hurt her. Doesn't she understand that?]

What was wrong with living by yourself? [When had she started staying with Frey anyway? He had visited her at her apartment just a few weeks ago... Had he already been killed, or did it start before then? He could have offered her somewhere to stay... He just bites his lip.]

... It wasn't safe anymore... [And probably still isn't; the memory of what Legato had done to her had come back vividly when she found herself telling Frey about him, and even though a few weeks had passed she still had nightmares relating to what had happened, and occasionally during the day she would find herself inexplicably terrified. House 15 was closer to the southern part of the village than CH4 had been.]

[...he realizes that was a stupid question to ask. He worried about her all by herself. Still...] Why move in with him, though? You could have said something, and... [trails off; different thread of thought because there are too many at once]

I don't want you to get hurt, Kaori.

... Because he confuses me... [And she'd like to think that the promise they had made would be enough to keep him from hurting her for now. She's fully aware that she's taking a big risk, but what else was she supposed to do?]

... You'd let me stay with you?

I...I would have... [except now he realizes maybe it wouldn't work out the best. Blind leading crippled, crippled leading blind. But they could trust each other, and that counts for something.]

If he confuses you, that's just another reason to stay away.

Would have? [Did that only refer to the time she had decided to leave her apartment to take refuge in House 15, or that he would no longer extend the invitation? Whatever it was, it leaves her throat feeling dry and with a sinking feeling in her stomach.]

Mithos...

I still would! [they would be able to figure it out... His heart and mind race, each trying to keep up with the other. He still doesn't understand, why she's even in this situation, and it's beginning to make him desperate.]

You don't have to live with someone you don't trust.

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